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9 Sexually Explicit Details about me

So, I was asked to tell nine things about myself on facebook lately. I was given the number 9 twice. Here is a list of things I put together:

“So, My number is 9 again. So, here are 9 gay things you should know about me (WARNING: EXPLICIT DETAILS!):
1. I don’t know why but I’ve always like older men in their late thirties or forties who look young. It turns me on.
2. I love playing the slave/master role in the bedroom where I am the slave and he is my master. I want him to dominate me and call me bitch and throw me on the bed. I am a submissive guy. This turns me on.
3. I am a feminine guy (some would say bitch) and I desire a really masculine man.
4. I lost my virginity when I was 18. I don’t remember to who but yeah.
5. I am a bottom. Or in other words, I like taking it. Now, I call myself a versatile bottom because every once in a while I will top but I am always bottoming. Afterall, who wouldn’t want my sweet bubble butt ass?
6. I am gay 100% but sometimes I wish I wasn’t. Sometimes I wish I was straight.
7. I am majorly attracted to chubs, bears, and cubs in the gay scene. A belly turns me on. Haha. I don’t know why, but it’s been that way since I was 7.
8. I like my men hairy. Hairy all over.
Lastly 9. Making out is a must for me!! I love cuddling and kissing. If the guy don’t kiss me then I’m like gtfo! Haha!

I’m pretty sure I’ll lose some friends on my facebook for this, but idgaf! I am free to express myself freely in America.
#Gay #LGBTQ #LGBT #GayRights #Powerbottom #Homosexual #GayEroticism#BeYoBitch #Twink #GayFantasy

As quoted by Jonathan S Fisher on

Thanks for reading!

-Jonathan S Fisher

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This is it!

So this evening I went on my Adam4Adam account and was seeing who was gonna flirt with me tonight. This was the result:

I am done with these stupid men trying to ruin  my life. I’m gonna find them and put their asses in jail!

-Jonathan S Fisher


It’s the weekend and I’m sitting here in the kitchen just staring at my computer racking my brain for things to do. Yesterday was fun for me because I slept all day and then went to a gamer’s convention at 3  pm. I only stayed there for an hour and then went home and cooked dinner. Dinner was orange chicken (I don’t know what’s gotten into me, but I’ve been eating a lot of Chinese food lately) and then I decided to go to bed again. I slept till about 1am and then I woke up and goofed around on my computer.

I was just Facebook my friends and checking my A4A (adam4adam)  to see if I was to get any hookups for the night (I wasn’t looking for a hookup per se. I was more like looking for a cuddle buddy to fall asleep in his arms). Needless to say, I got nothing that last night and went to bed feeling alone again. I mean, like there was this one guy by the name of Steve who was all into me and talking to me but sadly this morning when I woke up he told me he wasn’t a christian and so I said we weren’t gonna work out because I need a christian man who is gonna encourage me to grow in God and go to church with me.  I can’t marry a man who  is gonna drive me away from God and Jesus. This is one thing that I will only require of my man.

So yeah, I fell asleep alone. Lately, I’ve been feeling lonely. Wishing I hadn’t broke up with some of my exes because then they would be there for me when I have these spurts. I just need someone I can call my own and love and care for. A man who is gonna hold me in his arms ans reassure me that everything is gonna be ok. A masculine man who is dominant in the bed and very confident in himself. A man with a loving heart and a caring mind. A man who can handle me and love me for who I am rather than just sexual. I mean, I want my man to want me sexually but I don’t want that to be all of it. I want a heart to heart connection. I want that burning passion for each other to see each other succeed and pursue our dreams. A man who will love me for who I am and encourage me to grow not only in my religious views, but in my Career and mental stability.  A man who I can be there for and give him anything he wants and be his “bitch” (there are some exceptions to this term, but i think he will get it). A man who will love it when I cook, clean, and organize for him. A man who wants to adopt kids one day and make a family. A man who appreciates family and relationships. I want a manly man.

So there you have it. There is what I need in a man and what I look for (the whole total jest of it? probably). Will I ever find him? Will he find me? After-all, what is it a guy can find in me? I’m not gonna go over that list cause well, he can figure out if I’m right for him. Lately I’ve just been needing a cuddle buddy to cuddle up with. I wanna be romantic again. I wanna kiss my man when he gets home from work. I wanna cuddle up in bed with my man every night and hold him close to me and tell him I love him. I wanna hold hands with him while walking out in public. I wanna make him dinner and spoil him to death. I wanna do his laundry and make his bed and be his wife. I wanna love again. I wanna listen to him and talk to him. I wanna give him passionate hugs and kisses and be passionate in the bedroom. I want to go to church with him and pray with him. I wanna read the Word with him and talk about Jesus. I just want a man to love and I want to be romantic again.

So yeah, that’s how I’ve been feeling lately when I go to bed. I cry about it sometimes because I don’t know if I’ll ever find my other half. All these guys I’ve been seeing all just want me for one thing: sex. They see I’m attractive with a nice bubble butt and a nice package and they just wanna go down on me. Seriously, sex is really getting boring for me because I want more. I cry because it seems like no guys want real love. Well, I’m sorry. I’m not a sex toy. Ya know, it kinda pisses me off too. Like this morning when I told Steve that I didn’t think we were gonna work out he was like “Well, can we fuck at least”. I was just about to scream!! I just texted him and told him I’m not a sex toy. But seriously that disgusted me! Like I am not a sex toy and I am worth more than that! Seriously I should’ve seen that coming tho. Most men have interior motives like that. Gah!

So yeah, I did something nice today actually. I helped my room mate Norm put up the Christmas lights and decorations in his front yard. I was so happy when I did this because  it means Christmas is finally here and it’s time to put my christmas cheer on! I am excited! I even recorded a video this morning with me singing “Let It Snow”

Yeah. I just been In the Holiday Mood lately too. Listening to Christmas Music on Spotify and singing along with it. The other day I was at work just playing my music out loud and my boss was happy to hear it was Christmas music. She just looked at me and asked me to turn it up. So I did just that.  I love Christmastime! It brings me so much joy with all the Christmas caroling and beautiful young kids talking about Santa (no, I don’t believe in Santa, but it’s cute when kids talk about it). The beautiful gift wrappings are nice too. Christmas makes me happy! My favorite Christmas Carol is “Carol of The Bells”. I’ve heard many versions of it but I’ve got to say My Favorite of them all is the one done by “Celtic Woman”.

So anyways, I need to go, but I though I’d share what’s been on my mind. Happy Holidays!!

-Jonathan S Fisher

Pianist Needed in Grand Rapids, MI

Hi! My name is Jonathan S Fisher and I am a Second Tenor voice range looking for a pianist to accompany me and wanna help me sing. I’m currently a music major at GRCC and am a performer in the College Choir. I’m looking for a professional pianist to meet up with twice a week (maybe on the weekends) to do whatever (Sing a few songs and stretch my voice solo (choir is ok but I never get to hear just myself!). I only have two pieces of music but maybe you could bring a few pieces yourself and we can work it out) (With Christmas coming up, I can see us doing a whole concert with this).
Hit me up and we can see what we can work out! Thanks!
*No compensation.

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Updating U Part 2

So last time I had to quickly go and finish up working. Yeah, now I am sitting here alone in bed naked just typing this blog. It’s a silent Friday night and I’m locked into my bedroom to keep myself away from drinking alcohol (We have not come to that story yet on how I came to realize I am alcoholic but hopefully I will cover that in a few). I am craving it so bad and all I’ve gotta do is get out of my bed and go to the cabinet, but I’m controlling myself tonight because I know where it would get me! So anyways, I am gonna hopefully finish bringing y’all up to date with my life.

Before we get started, I realized I forgot to mention that I bought in a new room-mate a few weeks before. He seemed nice and he was 28. We’ll call him Manny (As I’m pretty sure he’s gonna kill me if I were to mention his real name. We have a bad relationship right now, but I will get to that in a minute). He seemed nice and he moved in right way down in the basement. So, I officially played Realtor there for a second.

Well, anyways The Fall Retreat came around. Calvary had said it would cost me $27.50 to attend and I was like oh that’s  nothing and decided to go. That weekend changed me! I learned a lot about how God wants me to be closer to him and how technology thwarts that. I also made a few new friends from the church and I poured my whole heart out that weekend. I was blessed and cried when I had to go home. I had left that weekend with a sense of peace and tranquility about my relationship with God and a new understanding. It was a wonderful retreat.

Then things got out of hand again. I’m not sure how but then I got into a fight with my landlord and we started to fight about me paying my rent and then he just said I needed to get out soon. Then I started to see Chris Surfus. Chris was a nice guy. He was. We went on 5 dates and we saw “Machete Kills” together. We went for a midnight stroll one time. Then things got complicated and I started to doubt him. He was a big guy and he kept talking about sex. I didn’t want sex. And then like I just couldn’t see myself having sex with him and he got mad. Then he had “Swine” by Lady Gaga and this song had not been officially released yet. I saw my chance and took the song and leaked it online. Chris  got upset texted me and told me he was through with me. He said I was disrespectful for leaking the song and that I wasn’t living to please him. Needless to say, he threw some insults at me too but  I just laughed it off and reminded myself that men will always have what I call a “hissy fit” where they will try to find something imperfect in me and try to pull me down. They won’t ever because I know who I am and I feel like I am a sweet, kind, and lovable guy with a few problems.

So with that said we broke up and I moved on. You know, I almost got into trouble for leaking “Swine” by Lady Gaga and now it turns out it was the real song afterwards. The FBI called me and asked me if I had any other songs and I told them no so they let me go. I basked in my glory anyways while it lasted. I actually leaked a real song! OMGaga! But yeah, after Chris I decided to give men a break and this young lady by the name of “Alice” asked me out. I totally accepted and we’ve been going out. She’s a nice girl and everything, but she’s more lesbian because I can tell. She’s got me in tangles and emotionally messed up. Honestly I want a meaningful relationship where somehow will want me for me and accept me if I change.

I don’t know honestly what I’m gonna do. Because I Love men, but I have discovered I won’t be opposed to being and caring for a woman. I just can’t bring myself to have sex with her. I don’t know what you call that. I mean I have no problem taking pants off a man or sleeping with him. I don’t know if I’m comfortable doing that with a girl because I’m scared to. I need a girl  who is dominant and masculine who will take control in the bed.  I need a girl who will know I have them fears and dominantly take them and crush them. I though Alice would do this but lately I’ve been getting this impression she likes girls more. That’s all she talks about and is always asking me if I found her a girl.

But anyways, I also had a hard time recently because last Friday night I did my usual drinking thing. Usually on Friday nights, I drink a couple of glasses of vodka to get drunk. Well, I think It was a horrid time to drink because I was broken over Alice and the night before I had gone trick-or -treating and slept with a guy who I asked to be my boyfriend. He rejected me and told me I was too much to handle. Not only that, but Alice texted me that day saying I was cheating on her. I was broken that night. I had been through too much and it was emotionally disturbing me.

So I drank. I drank too much. I ended up tossing and turning and butt naked flopping and flailing like a fish that night. I was out of control and even one of my new friends, Jakob Adrian Shouse, had seen it.  I had him on the webcam before I lost all conscientiousness. I blacked out and supposedly spent the next 4 hours moaning, screaming, flailing, flopping, crying, and doing whatever.  Here is a video that “Manny” recorded.

I was crying in that video and all I could think of was my parents. I in fact did give a pretty good religious fight there in my drunkenness. I have watched this video over and over again. All the time I really am amazed at it and what I said. The pain of all the years resonated in my voice very well in that video and I am not surprised. Even  when I’m sober, that same pain I expressed in that video is still there. It gets worse everyday and I think I will Always have that hole punched in my heart. Even then, God is still alive in my life and I DO firmly believe in Him. I could never reject God!

So anyways, I spent that Saturday in a hangover and then that very Saturday evening Norm said I needed to get out right then and there. He was upset because I drank his vodka and rum. He wanted repayment and I couldn’t provide it. So, those next two days (Saturday and Sunday) I spent the whole time looking for another place to live and stressing out about it. I had to get the cops involved and I had to threaten to press charges on Norm. I even got into a bad fight with “Manny” and we are not the best of friends right now.  In fact, I completely ignore him and I am very scared to talk to him. I’ve kept my distance.

So with that being said, I apologized to Norm about everything and I agreed to pay him $350 by December 11th to stay November and December. There may be an option to stay for the month of January but we will see then.  I also admitted I am an alcoholic and I am trying to attend AA meetings. I am relieved though, because I was really stressed out about everything. I am still stressed because I missed my final exam on my one class and then I’ve got to figure out this money issue. I also am in finals with this Math class, but overall the shelter issue is covered (Phew!).

Right now I am doing ok. It’s a Saturday night and I made it through the weekend without drinking a lick of  alcohol (Congrats!) and I am quite still dealing with some things. For one, this one guy Brian Carmer got mad at me and threatened to tell the town I’m a horrid person and that I’m a whore. Why? Because like omg I put this ad on Craigslist advertising I wanted a boyfriend and then he emailed me. I was like uhm ok and then I looked at his facebook photos and was like omg he’s too old. I didn’t want to tell him and avoided it. Well that was a mistake on my part and when it came down to it, he got mad and told me he’d be a jerk.  Whatever though.

Just last night (Friday) my old lover from Pennsylvania texted me. He said he still cared for me and that he was still single. He also said that he hasn’t forgotten me. I cried. I still care for him too and my heart is heavy for him. I wish I didn’t leave. I told him I’d move back to Pennsylvania  in two semesters.  He said he might come down in December to see me. I hope he does.

Anyways, I think I’m done writing here. See ya later. And Thanks for reading my fans ❤




-Jonathan S Fisher



Updating u….part 1 =)

So, I’m sitting here at work two hours away from my shift ending. I’m so bored. Like literally sometimes I wish my job was more than sitting here at the front just letting the music students in the door. Sometimes I wish I could be a cashier. Sometimes I could be at Walmart just stocking shelves, but I have this boring job and I’ve gotta be grateful that I get money anyways. So, I’ve decided instead of sitting here and moping about this job to write this blog entry and bring y’all up to date with my life. It’s been a crazy life even as I speak.
So, I don’t remember where the hell I left off last time and I’m just gonna play it safe and begin wit when I was still living in Corsair Switzerlord. Yeah, those days were hard. He started to ask me for money and to buy him phone service and cable. Well, with that being said I looked for a fulltime job. I was having no luck. I was going to the library and filling out applications everyday and still wouldn’t get a call. I also continued looking and pursuing for a relationship with a guy. I think the last person I left y’all with was Jaime. Gosh, I still remember Jaime Lee Cain and I still have feelings for him but it would’ve never worked out anyways. But I think the next guy I moved on to was a man by the name of Chris. He seemed nice and I talked to him on facebook for a week. Then he decided to break up with me because he decided I wasn’t making a life for myself. He said I was a loser because I had no job and wasn’t in college and that he didn’t need someone like that. What a jerk!
Anyways, he broke my heart. He really did and I started to consider what I really needed to do in my life to make it seem like I was working to be a better person. I decided that very first week of breaking up with Chris that since I wasn’t having any luck with getting a Fulltime job that I was gonna go back to school. So with that chosen, I applied for Federal loan assistance and the Pell Grant. The application did ask me what school I was choosing to go to and I just chose Grand Rapids Community College (GRCC) because people had informed me before that it was a cheap college and a place to start. So, I took the leap and applied there. Within the next week I had taken the accuplacer test (Which I had scored pretty well on the reading and English part. However, I did need direction in Math), received my notification I was officially a student, and registered for classes.
So meanwhile, I started seeing a guy by the name of Tony. Gosh! Tony was a 42 year old single guy and damn, he was a sexy guy! He actually got me started with drinking alcohol tho. Him and I were seeing each other a lot and having sex a lot. He was hot and I had actually fallen for him. I really did and I am still in love with him. Infact, I’m gonna see him this weekend actually. Things got complicated with him anyways. He notified me a few weeks ago that he was moving to California. But before that he wouldn’t text me or call me, so I moved on.
So, I attended college orientation and after that was the official day I was a student and my classes began August 25 starting with Math 097: Basic Mathematics and Algebra. I was excited and scared that day. I had officially taken the first step toward my future and I had done it with no help at all from my foster parents. For the first time ever, I felt special and rewarded. I felt independent and free from my parent’s reign and I had more confidence of choosing who I wanted to be. I was feeling so proud that day. I called every one of my friends and my parents up to let them know. I had done something right and I wasn’t gonna let those people think I was stupid and irrelevant.
So, just after that I had also applied for work-study and then got my current job at Grand Rapids Community College Music Department working at a church letting Music students in through the door and setting up the classrooms for the teachers. Originally, I started at working Tuesdays and Thursdays from 2-8pm at $7.75 an hour. It was an awesome job to start with, but eventually it got boring. It’s a job anyways and it pays. Right now, I work Monday, Wednesday, and Thursdays from 2-7pm same wage. It isn’t that bad actually because I see beautiful children and hear beautiful violins playing.
Anyways, after Tony, I had given up on love and just started having one night stands to fill my need for love. I also started being a prostitute and was selling myself on the streets. I was at the time struggling with my money and paying for cable+phone+internet at Corsair Switzerlord’s house. I was also buying many other things and I had also received a new cellphone through virgin mobile. So, I was struggling and I turned to prostitution. I got tired of these guys saying I was so cute and hot. I was like omg I could make money from just them paying me to get sexual with me. So I did just that. It wasn’t satisfying me, but heck I was making money and one time I made $300. I had given up on love. I was tired of being heartbroken and used. I met a lot of interesting guys anyways. I had also started drinking vodka like crazy too. I also came close to contracting HIV but thank God I tested negative. Infact just two weeks ago I got tested and was clean. So. Rest assured, I stopped prostitution a month ago, but I will get to that in a minute.
I did try to mange a relationship and be a prostitute too. I tried once to get into a serious relationship with a guy by the name of Todd Smith but sadly something went wrong there. He brought me vodka and gin, and I stayed with him for a few weeks but I slowly lost feelings for him and we separated. Then there was Ryan Michael Taylor from New Orleans. We were together for about 3 months. We talked like crazy. Everyday for an hour or more I would call him and talk about my life and my sex life. We had an open relationship going and we were fallen deeply for each other. Not sure what broke us up, but I think it was because I met another guy. Oh yeah! I did! I met Andrew Kinney (Andy). OMG he was like so in my alley. I had fallen for him majorly. We slept with each other for 5 nights in a row and he bought me food and was trying to help me get out of Corsair Switzerlord’s house (Sadly it didn’t work). He also introduced me to Calvary Church over on East Beltline and the College Group that meets on Sundays. We also went out to lunch a couple of times and we talked a lot. I was fallen for him and he got me into attending Calvary Church every Sunday. Sadly, we broke up. It wasn’t my doing though. He said he didn’t need a boyfriend and didn’t want to be committed at the moment and just left. I’ve seen him now and then but he never talks or texts me anymore. I think it’s because I exposed his sexuality in the church and he doesn’t know what to say. Plus he’s always working. So yeah, it didn’t work out.
So, Andy and I broke up and I continued to be a prostitute. I did a lot and made roughly $250 over a month and a half. Amazingly I also kept up the good grades in school. I also got worse in my drinking habit and tried some pot (I swallowed it and omg I almost died that night being so high from it). I had only done that once though and have stayed away from it. Sadly though, the alcohol got out of hand and I became an alcohol (Long story on how I came to realize it but I will also get to that in a minute). School was going very well. I was and still am taking three classes: Math 97: Basic Mathematics, CLS 100: Introduction to College for New Students, and MUS 189: College Choir. My favorite class: MUS 189: College Choir. I remain getting good grades and have already planned next semester’s classes. You know, I never did know what degree I was gonna get until I went to choir. College choir changed me. It gave me more confidence to sing and I realized how passionate I am about becoming a musician.
So when September came around and I was quite confident I wanted to major in Applied Vocal Performance in Music and I am actively pursuing it. It was a hard decision to make because I was haunted by many doubts and many downfalls such as what if I never become a famous popstar? Or what if I don’t become successful in music? Anyways, I took the plunge and I am glad I did! I am taking all my chances and pursuing my dream. And listen: I may or may not become a famous pop star but at least I tried and that’s all that matters in the long run. So, here is to the next four years and an Associate Degree in Music. Next semester, I am scheduled to take vocal, piano, and Beginner’s Music theory class. I am excited but I need to pass this math class first. I am doing very well on the class anyways averaging a B+!
So ayways, I had met this guy by the name of Norman Bouma while I was doing one of my side jobs of cleaning and he seemed nice. He was 72 and was impressed by my cleaning skills. He showed me a bedroom and said I could stay at $100 a month. I was really amused by the idea and I ended up moving in a week later. Well, that got me moved out of the Psyche’s house (Corsair Switzerlord) and into a better environment. Grant it, I also moved into a worse situation too. It was better than living with the psycho Corsair Switzerlord. Ok, I’ll explain. Norm asked me $100 plus my foodstamps plus sex. I was disgusted! I was like hell no! I aint having sex with great grandpa! So, I just continued to push it. I continued to kiss him but I never did do anything sexual. Eww! He begged me and asked but eventually he backed off after three weeks and increased my rent to $300 a month plus foodstamps. This was too much but I sold my butt on the street to pay for the month of October. I made that smooth $300 in a one night thing. I felt bad. BUT i didn’t have buttsex that night or do anything risky. Rather, I had to do “other” things and it was awkward because the guy was 57. I made the money anyways and paid the rent.
Well, meanwhile, I Went through three more breakups. After Andy, I kinda took a break and then came along “Danny” (We will just call him danny for now because I’m pretty sure he don’t wanna see his name on here because apparently his girlfriend is pregnant. ). Danny was a wonderful young man. He was 18 and lived in Muskegon. He was still in highschool and a beautiful white hairy chubby male. We were together for about two weeks but we ended up breaking up because his family couldn’t accept him for being gay and they threatened to throw him on the street if he continued to. So out of consideration I broke the two of us up and I moved on. He still secretly wants me and I know he still dreams of me, but it is what it is. He actually introduced me to Shane Dawson on youtube (Shanaynay) and actually gave me some spunk in my life. He was actually the first feminine guy I liked.
Well then there was Corey Kelsey. We slept together for two weeks and we actually thought about working things out. Sadly, things got into the way and he also was the one who brought me closer to God. Let me explain. Corey came from the streets and he was a good kid. He was wonderful at cooking and very masculine. Very skinny too. I think we had a mutual relationship going on and we were serious. Heck, I had him live with me in Norm’s house for 2 weeks! Then it fell apart. You see, he never did tell me he was pagan and then one weekend he told me. Told me he was a warlock and that he practiced paganism. This sent red flags up and I immediately started to realize how distant I was becoming to God. So, Norm found out too. And Norm is a christian and him and I got into an argument on why Corey couldn’t stay in the house. I actually brought religion into the argument and then that set off “the spark” and I don’t know what happened but supposedly I gave a sermon and quoted many scriptures that night!! It was very impressive and the first time I had a personal one on one religious conversation with Norm. Well, Norm ended up in the ER that night. He was shocked from the speech I gave. I also went to bed that night really spiritually troubled.
God was calling me that night! And He used Corey to make me realized how much I was sinning and drawing further away from His purpose for my life. God was telling me that night to stop being a prostitute and to search for real love. He also told me that I needed to take Corey out of my life and pray and read His word more. Well, I ran that night. I ran not physically, but spiritually. I Fought Him and asked why. I was scared. So I went to church that day with Corey and by the time It was over with Corey was angry and I realized he had to go. So I told him he needed to leave and I cried about it but he left that night and I never saw his face again. God then stepped deeper into my life and showed me the changes I needed to do and asked me to be more deep in praying to Him and I did. I stopped being a prostitute that night and I began to rely on God to provide. Ya know not only five days after days after that, I was needing a buspass to get around town. I came so close to tears. I was like i need this money but I’m gonna trust God right now to provide. He did. Norm, my roommate bought me a bus pass and I no longer needed anything. Grant it, Norm did say I would need to pay him back but yeah. I then trusted God 100% from that point and I still trust Him.
So, yeah. I continued to succeed in school and I also continued to attend Calvary Church. I also started to regularly attend Calvary’s Young Adult/College life program every sunday. I love this group actually because I’ve connected with the two leaders, Sue Schroeder and Mason Sherrill. I first connected with them when the college group went to Craig’s Cruisers. That night was fun and the first time I had gone out on an outing with them but basically I poured my heart out to the Youth Pastor,Mason and told my story. He said he wasn’t going to condemn me, which made me feel comfortable with him. Then Miss Sue Schroeder started to talk to me and I told her some details about my life. I am happy to be part of the group and I am trying to connect more with the Pastor and Miss Sue Schroeder (In fact, tomorrow I am having lunch with Mason to discuss my life and God. Yay!).
Ya know, my life was going very well until about four weeks ago. It started with a few breakups. You see, a few weeks ago I had been continuing to pursue a meaningful relationship with a guy and I Met a wonderful man by the name of Dan Chapp. He wasn’t from Grand Rapids. He had six kids. I was hooked on this guy and then all of a sudden he just stopped talking to me and wouldn’t even text me. I was upset about this and then Tony (The guy previously mentioned) also saw me. He said he was moving to California and that he loved me. He said he’d marry me if I just move to California with him. Uhm, I was so broken! I was drinking that day because I was upset about this and I had gone through two breakups. That very night I cut my wrist and ended up in the hospital. OMG, like I have never felt stupid! I came home feeling ok but that scarred me.
Then after that, not even two weeks later I went on a fall retreat. I will continue this later…gotta go and wrap up work.

Write Later.

Jonathan S Fisher



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